hah art

autobahnik @ 2008-05-09T20:42:00

2008-05-10T03:52:20Z

last night i went to sleep reading milan kundera.

this morning i woke up to nicole nudging me

i'm not sure what to even say since
the last 9 months have been so foreign , so wanted
that to begin talking

autobahnik @ 2008-03-05T17:26:00

2008-03-06T01:40:57Z

today i

drew a mountain of crowns
took pictures of saltines
discovered an indoor pool
and swam around like

a frog
a duck
and then an anika

for lunch i ate

pomegranate green tea
a vitamin
3 saltine cracker packs of two

autobahnik @ 2007-01-25T12:43:00

2007-01-25T20:57:43Z

just a place.

2007.

walks in the snow. in the melting.
i smoke a pack of american spirits a week.
not so so and.
italian non-vegan boots. fuck you.
dark psychedelic pop. joseph cornell.
finding my name under articles in papers.
bodies that fit together in the morning.
sculpting clay self-portrait.
lists. drinks. bicycle.
down hawthorne hard.

bands.

cranes
the black angels
tiger baby
emily haines
akron/family
suicide

autobahnik @ 2006-10-16T16:37:00

2006-10-16T23:38:17Z

i'm finding everything a bit too gratuitous right now.

autobahnik @ 2006-10-01T12:29:00

2006-10-01T19:34:20Z

my night began like any other portland night, with the exception of yelling full heartedly at a dildo clad clown to take his apparatus off the table because my mother is here visiting. the night ended like any other night in portland playing twister with tweeked out girls and boys on e and vicodin with brian enoed pianists banging around in the background. monday tv on the radio. wednesday scissor sisters. thursday art brut. next thursday ladytron. next monday yo la tengo. next wednesday a hawk and a hacksaw. next saturday chin up chin up. next saturday be your own pet. i don't open textbooks. i don't wear a watch.

autobahnik @ 2006-09-20T09:28:00

2006-09-20T16:29:18Z

i just called my mother to say i was looking into withdrawing from the semester. i don't know what i'm doing but it can't be good.

autobahnik @ 2006-09-18T20:06:00

2006-09-19T03:11:38Z

1. i have six interns! six! just in time for me to set up an underwriting program. thank the fucking lord.

2. holocene takes 50 dollars from me almost every weekend. i can not resist the whiskey sours for the life of me.

3. hey you know, the wasteland is fucking good. but only after the 16th read.

4. speaking of lords and interns, KLC RADIO is up and running like hell. so listen in. especially my show. shows. showz.

klcradio.net

a homeless man pointed this out to me and we're worried

2006-08-30T02:16:07Z

harmonica/harm anika

autobahnik @ 2006-08-16T03:35:00

2006-08-16T07:38:05Z

the race back to portland begins with sleep.

autobahnik @ 2006-08-14T02:14:00

2006-08-14T06:36:12Z

from portland to anika

i don't even know.

autobahnik @ 2006-07-24T12:39:00

2006-07-24T19:40:53Z

FUCK SEXUALITY!!

gender benders, boys, girls, aggression, obnoxious trashy flirtation, nagging dragging questions, all yous need to back the fuck up.

autobahnik @ 2006-07-14T00:29:00

2006-07-14T07:39:05Z

i'm sorry but WHO THE FUCK is momoko and why is a dog inviting me to alamo parties on myspace. its cute, anyways.

i ate three cookies yesterday that were not vegan. matchpoint BLOWS. my cellphone has gone missing. some homeless person is sleeping in our backyard. i'm going to a watershed tomorrow! thom yorke is getting better. the girl who hitched a ride with me from sf works at the red and black now and it was awkward. i like the liars more and more. and babyshambles. my bike light is too loose to be useful. i'm going to clean up the klc office tomorrow afternoon, get it good and proper for buisness, and cutting lines. ha, uuh. i've take out 10 books and read none. fuck it. i dragged a shopping cart home last night, and will serve as my new clothing dresser.

conclusion: RAY JOHNSON IS FUCKING BRILLIANT. fucking seriously.

autobahnik @ 2006-07-07T00:09:00

2006-07-07T07:17:42Z

1. seattle was fun. we were on the list and got free drinks. i hung out with dead moon backstage, they did not remember when i dragged the drummer into the radio station back in april but why would they.

2. fourth of july was okay. there were firecracker wars on every street. the alamo was teeming with socialists burning flags in the street while a band played in the driveway and i held sparklers.

3. sauvie island is just infested with berries and beer and naked old men parading down each beach.

4. i'm broke absolutely and fed up with most people. but my bicycle alleviates most of this. everyone i know is splitting with thier signifigant others. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 couples. even my little break. everyone needs space. everyone needs their own skin.

5. i'm all about panda bear right now. the new thom yorke isn't terrific. and why did sleater-kinney break up?

6. its 4am at the pharmacy cafe in northeast. a drunk guy stumbled in, apparently paid for my sandwhich without telling me and left. hm.

autobahnik @ 2006-06-18T17:53:00

2006-06-19T01:16:22Z

with a light ducktaped on to my 5 speed red bicycle, alex andrea amy and i chains clanking and small red lights flashing, pedalled furiously through southeast and sellwood until three. the weather was perfect, the wind was down, and the cars were slow. we hopped to the e room for portland pride, clinton st. bar where the rocky horror picture show was just getting out and becca's new damn well furnished house off milwaukie. i had gotten back from san fransisco at 5 that morning, so was drowsy and drunk and happy. sf was a two day blur of following friendly moped gangs zooming up the tall streets to good views, watching raccoons and skunks and stray cats in golden gate park, and sleeping on haight st. the ride up was spent on the floor of the seatless geo metro sandwhiched between a moped wheel and three burner girls playing the cure off a fischer toys tape deck. i had been tired of portland, sick of conversationless friends and draining work scheduled. san fransisco was the sunny filled pause i needed. so anyways, now i'm just at work, half plotting everything. in a few days i'm going on a bike/camping trip to vancouver, b.c.

in a few years i'm going to buy a building and turn it into a charles rennie mackintosh tea room. think glasgow school of art library (excpet the wood will be light, see the willow tea room at sauchiehall) meets as220 in providence.

to the side of this tea room i will have an art book library.
i will sell breakfast and afternoon teas, and local beers and local berries.

i'm reading henry miller's big sur and the oranges of hieronymus bosch, its not very good. so i put it down and am now reading in cold blood because the beginning is just so god damn beautiful. i rarely finish books anymore. i'm a writer(ooh huff huff) not a reader, theres something cheap about reading to me, i hate writers that collage their influences together (i suppose this is completely inevitable, in a nothings original get over it way)

i sound misinformed. i'm going to go shelve more books, the library is a little busy today.

autobahnik @ 2006-04-29T12:15:00

2006-04-29T19:28:36Z

the klc board dinner was fucking fabulous.
we drank expensive beer and ate 10 moroccan feasts, god i love college budgets.
miles and i had food orgasms while nicolia and logan sipped their red wine
rebecca told us about her runway show and josh and laine learned some new bellydancing moves.
then off to the new house!
there are mirrors and lights and little cabinets everywhere.
attic nooks and sittable roofs. patios and stainglass doors.
claw foot tubs and marble floors.
wine cellars and winding stairs.

we walked and rode bikes over to bruce podobniks house, for senior thesis party,
there were breakdance circles around a little girl with a hoola hoop
a keg in the back and a broken piano with stuffed ducks lining the top.
there were signs around saying don't drink and ride bikes, ask bruce for a ride!
we went back to our house for a champagne toast and a david byrne dance party.
drunk dialed my mom at 3, you're in your house and i'm in mine!
this morning we sat at a geanie's,
drank stumptown, talked art history and watched trains go by,

i'm obviously updating because i have too much to work.

anyone down for a little library action? call the cellular,
i'll be in the corner office or the balcony table.

autobahnik @ 2006-04-28T16:17:00

2006-04-28T23:29:48Z

last night was 14 days straight in the library, this week 4 all nighters, 6 hours of napping sleep since tuesday. but.

this morning we signed papers and smiled at each other across the table and started talking lawn ornaments.

and this afternoon in the heat and wind i drove across the ross island bridge to home.

tonight is the klc board dinner, first night with the new lady loves of my life and a party at my soan teacher's house. oh bruce.

tomorrow is heart attack about the 12 page catalogue essay, 6 page gender final,
24, yeah...24 page russian final, and modern art china final. and tokavera revision.
everything stops on wednesday.

the flaming lips new album is growing on me, no not really.
then again the new tv on the radio album makes up for any bad album ever.

autobahnik @ 2006-03-19T20:27:00

2006-03-20T04:43:01Z

I know i have been a dead corpse for the last two weeks
and i'd like to thank everyone for bearing with me.
i was begining to think this hollowed out
sickly person was my adult self. scary. BUT NO!
I'm anika again, no more tissues by my bed.
no more piles of antibiotics.

anyways i'm reading an essay on village prose in soviet russia post-stalin, and heres what they have to say.

Village Prose began to expose and condemn rather than to extol. The first enemy was youth and youth culture. Village Writers bristle with a pathological hatred of rock n' roll ("spiritual AIDS"). They regard aerobics with equal venom.

AND. heres my life plan.
APRIL- lewis and clark
MAY- lewis and clark, florida, massachusetts, back to L.A. for 21st birthday
JUNE-train up to writing conference at lewis and clark 1st-15th
JUNE-intern at Mass MOCA for three months
SEPTEMBER-attend John Cabot University in Rome, Italy.
learn italian, fall in love (maybe this has nothing to do with),
see the all-stars of my profession.
SEPTEMBER TILL FOREVER-live in italy. end up in greek islands, relive the terror of the magus. end up on a train rushing through the green forests of green germany. end up in modern denmark. end up in southern france. end up in the underground cafes of vienna. end up on the highlands of scotland.
end up in the towers of budapest and the sharp streets of petersburg.

end up in centuries of hallways lit with the sun and strung high with art.

and every end will be lived in summer.

thank you.

autobahnik @ 2006-03-13T02:24:00

2006-03-13T10:24:40Z

dear fever, cough and flu,

it'd be really nice
if you got the fuck out of me.

KTHANX.

dear boys who have sex with girls on this hall,

just because you have a dick,
doesn't mean you have to be one.
put the goddamn toilet seat down

YEA THANX

dear internet,

why are you so awesome?
thanks for letting me download
are you afraid of the dark? episodes at 2am.

really, thank you

dear myspace,

why must you consume everything

mmm no thanks

dear fitzgerald

you are pretensious and i love you

thanks so much

dear fever,
i'm leaving cough and flu out of this.
you are the one that really matters.
leave me or i'll just die

great thanks

autobahnik @ 2006-03-11T06:40:00

2006-03-11T14:41:02Z

playing young is so god damn draining sometimes

autobahnik @ 2006-02-22T14:17:00

2006-02-22T22:51:45Z

all the yesterdays i am nordic. i skate on the baltic. today i am my desk, soon a bartleby and a lover of crouching. my desk is the days stacked. on kawara books, artforum, two art history texts, three boxes of tea: chai, chamomile, earl grey plus generic bon tea, four untouched notebooks, liquid niquil, marcel dzama cut outs, coffee mug with a lewis and clark bear on it, traces of vicodin, ritalin, adderol, half cut shoulder pads, package from jared, cellphone, lotion, two cans of empty pabst cans, bottle of carlo rossi with spare change in it, hello i am stickers, floss, hair tie, scissors, patches for my jeans, blank cds, camera, tape, edward hopper calender, modern art book, las vegas shotglass, two pens, open novel: desperate characters, pamphlet for abroad study, used AA batteries, jenica's valentine, Worcester Art Museum exhibition flyer, case of cds, Alex's wrapped package, blank notecards, wanderlust postcards, cassette of wham!, two packages of honey, trident gum, condoms, netflicks, id card. i'm listening to the me and you everyone we know soundtrack, sea change, and the mourir c'est facile album mostly.

everyone has been spacey or tipsy for days.

autobahnik @ 2006-02-07T23:38:00

2006-02-08T09:02:16Z

at mass moca

as a construction: cai guo qiang (i bought two coffee table art books just today), tea, sufjan stevens, basketballs, sun, night driving as archetypal. (-fox)

i am tired. most of the time but never at night. i am working and chewing gum and tapping my foot most of the time. i played basketball and its not even nostalgic, it just is. and throwing it up so it lofted near all the stars, made everything eight times more epic and real.

for alex.

alive. (strictly painterrrs)

men: 1. on kawara 2. philip pearlstein 3. ross bleckner 4. skot olsen 5. sigmar polke (runners up: rauschenberg, dzama)

women: 1. ophrah shemesh 2. joan snyder 3. dana carlson 4. fran holstrom 5. georgia o'kieffe!!! haha just kidding.

p.s. will someone please deciede what i do this summer, shit. i got too many pulls. give me an ultimate ultimate answer.

i know hopper when i'm tired and quiet. its racking up, the weekends but i'm happy because i collect my life i miss this state of mind the most, oh god oh god the absolute clarity and moment. on kawara blinking YOU KNOW? arielle and untitled car and new mexican desert pre post office post scream. POST POST SCRIPT: guess the artists. POST CUBED: i saw imagine me and you tonight, and whoa am i sap for a chick flick.

autobahnik @ 2005-11-24T13:46:00

2005-11-24T18:47:59Z

300 PIECE MARCHING BANDS ECHOING DOWN THE AVENUES AT 3AM

oh my god fuck the macey's day parade and their apparent vendetta against my sleep.

and yet,

i totally ran to the window when charlie brown came floating by my window.

when a record breaking 17 people text message you wishing happy holidays,

i think the season has fuckin HIT.

honestly, this is the life. its time to raid central park of its leaves and drink some WICKED cheap sparkling apple cider with the rest of new york. i hope everyones turkey day is fucking fabulous honestly, call me, i'd love to hear about your family.

on a further note, whilst angstly texting alex at 4am last night i realized i have no idea what the fuck i am doing. technically i need help with my life. aesthetically i couldn't give a fuck.

autobahnik @ 2005-06-06T14:06:00

2005-06-06T21:13:54Z

yo la tengo is coming in july. they are going to play against a backdrop of oceanography films at massmoca. so that will be a few notched above neat.

in other news i've been having vicious dreams about kraftwerk, sexuality and canabalism. i also picked up an e.e.cummings book and got completely defened by an instrumental version of his poetry. a class of students had to capture these sounds in jars and tin boxes, i couldn't fit the tainted air into my box because it had a rusty engine in it. i wish i had one of those tacky dream books around, anyone else have an opinion?

autobahnik @ 2005-06-04T14:35:00

2005-06-04T21:37:41Z

The first sentence of every novel should be: Trust me, this will take time but there is order here, very faint, very human.

michael ondaatje